Sometimes this is just hard...

Sometimes, adoption is hard:
It's hard for the child, who starts to love his new family, even while missing his former family. It's hard for the family, wherever they are, for having to make the decision to give up a child, no matter what the circumstances. AND, even though it's hard for the adoptive parents, that should not be the reason to not adopt.

I've been encouraged this week, by another adoptive Mom, who reminded me that God uses adoption to reveal our own sin, as adoptive parents. There are times, when our children grieve or don't act like we want and we lose patience...that is our own sin. There are times, when people question our intentions and we start to wonder about our calling and then realize that is our own sin--our sin of fear. You see, adoption is a calling. It is something that God uses as a tool to point out our own fleshly desires and sins and then to SLOWLY mold us into who He desires us to be. It is a process. Am I really willing to lay down my life for more children? Am I really willing to forgo some material security to love 4 more children?

I am so thankful that God chose us to go down this road. I am thankful for the work He is doing in my heart, for increasing my compassion, patience and love. It is an honor to be able to say that I love Gavin and will love my new children.